God…Why would you put me in this situation knowing I would mess up..knowing that this would go on?? Why did you allow it to happen?? Was it a lesson you wanted to teach me? Did you just want the devil to win? Did you want the devil to enter my household?? Ok What Do You Want? Im trying to live this life according to what you want it to be. Here I am..arguing…yelling…pushing…puttin my hands on her…is this what you wanted to happen? Is this in your plan & in your will? I don’t understand…I really don’t..Why?? I Just Want To Know WhY God??? I’m at the point to where I don’t think I deserve to be with anyone…where I’m not good enough for anyone…I’m not good enough for this relationship..I’m not good enough for her love. I don’t even deserve this life..wish you would just take it from me…I don’t deserve it. All I do is hurt people & make them hurt, cry & just hate me. God Why?? I Don’t Deserve This Relationship, This Life or Anything…if you want me alone God…PUT ME THERE…But without the hurt harm & heartbreak.
Thanks For Reading,
Alord Joseph
aka
Najlah Jamere
bka
Jemini
but will always be known as
The Bishop
